Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Why oh why

Why must life be filled with many, many deadlines? And why is it that my answer is most often the lack of time to do the things I need and want to do? Or why is it when I am pressed for time, particulary on a deadline for a paper, I start a manic organizing and cleaning the room? Maybe to de-clutter my head? Just a habit of procrasitination, right? Right.

Today's task is must read several criticisms on Frankenstein for a couple of hours before Theory class; After theory 1 class, attend a conference workshop at 7:30 pm; then walk home, make dinner and try to finish the readings for Thurs. I am feeling guilty for spending more time on theory courses than my lit class -- we are watching a film for that class, which is why I feel rather slack; what I ought to do is begin the Henry James novel for the next week so that I won't fall behind, as usually the case!

I always seem to be scrambling -- and why do I beat myself over the head when I quite obviously choose to make plans this weekend and watch Capote and Batman? Silly, silly whiner. So okay, I absolutely need to get some work done before I reward myself with these films.

Diss in 15 says if I write everyday for 10 min and increase time gradually, I will establish my "writing addiction" -- of course, whiny rants do not count. BUT, once preliminary research plans start rolling around, uh, like next week, I will start spilling a bit more on possible topics.

current music addiction: Ladytron's Witching Hour.

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