Couldn't sleep last night, which isn't unusual for me, but I haven't had a slight panic attack for a while. Of course, I was up thinking about what's next for me? I bet years from now I'll still wonder and speculate about what to do next. It's no surprise, I guess, that I've been chronically neglecting this blog for months-- what is it now, a three month hiatus? Ah, I think, now there was a student full of promises, and inspired by the most inane things about life in school, buried in books and ideas. I was going to figure out why it all made sense to me, why it mattered to be doing what I enjoy--reading, writing, questioning, thinking--the life of the of the mind.
Last night I flashed forward to the summer: plagued with looking for a full time job that may or may not cover paying rent/bills, and finish writing. Gah! A friend of mine told me what her advisor said, and it was something to the effect of "serious grad students don't sleep." But I value my sleep. So, gee whiz, what now?
On the lighter side of things -- it rained and thundered last night, which means this morning the air is fresh as a daisy. I wish it were bright and sunny, but that may be asking too much of the universe. I'm just glad I had the opportunity to blog and have some coffee before reading.
It's a good day, I know it will. I love how reflecting on fleeting-yet-troubling thoughts can simmer things down, which reminds me -- I need to write to mentor. sigh.
C'mon, get some reading done today!!!
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